COMING OUT

Being Gay was something no one ever really talked about when I was younger, Im not saying im really old or anything and it wasent back in the dark ages. but its only really around the time I came out that it was more accepted.

When I was a teen I loved TV shows with strong independent women in them Xena and Voyager, Scully from the X-files. All that JAzz you know what I mean. I dunno maybe I fancied them I just didn't know what it was.

I dated boys, had a few boyfriends nothing major can count them all on one hand, and yes I was a good girl no hanky panky I was under 16 of course.


Anywho shutting up and moving on unless you want to hear more in which case leave a comment and I shall divulge all.

In college I met a girl we shall call her Florance (lol she would kill me if I called her that)
Anyway I knew florance back in little school then I moved away. However when I went to college there she was. A year older than me and openly GAY.

What the hell is this GAY thing. there were only 5 girls in our media studies class so us girls stuck together. o we had such fun. Florance intrigued me some what. I just couldn't help myself. she had a on - off girl friend we shall call her Dasiey (again not real name)
There were on and off like crazy, and for some reason I wanted them off rather than on. naughty me.

Anyway I knew I really liked her and it grew as days went by, she introduced me to the gay world, We never got together as a couple I did stay at hers once but that's coz I had no where else to go after my first ever Gay night out (more about that later) but nothing happened. we were just friends.

You know we all have that one friend that just attracts everyone, well that was florance.
Soooo this went on for a Year, I chased her round hoping for something but it was to never be. She got together with another gal and another and another never me, so I gave up and moved on.

the following year a took beauty instead so I didn't need to be around her, I was deffo the odd one out in that group. short blonde hair with a pink Mohawk lol.

On to FAMILY!
That 2nd year in college but younger sister who no longer lived in the family home arrived. We never really got on when we were younger (we do now, most of the time) we did anything to get one over on each other. that's what happens when there is 18 month between you.

So long story short she found out and spread the word, Mum and dad both asked me and I said no at  first but they knew. and it went from there it was just ok. didn't really talk about it very often but no one was funny about it either bit boring really. Just annoying how it couldn't be done my way. but still least it is done

. Telling my little sister was harder I didn't want her to get bullied in school and my little brother. but fingers crossed to my knowledge they were ok. my older sister found it all weird and had lots of questions but that was fine to. My granddad had a stroke many years ago and so didn't really understand, but I know he approved of my now civil partner before he died.

 My Nan, well we never spoke about it as I believed it best. but she did meet my partner a few times and I know she knew, she still spoke to me and helped me a lot after she died.

 My other granddad on my dads side well far as I am aware he only found out this May when he came to my civil partnership. but he did come. note I haven't spoken to him about it but I think it will be an unspoken thing which is fine he is almost 90 after all.

So reader we don't all have very dramatic comings out and most of the time they are fine. its just scarey.

Any questions please ask away

Next time: First Gay night out (its funny)

Intro

Hello and welcome,
I love writing in my journal so I thought id give this ago.
Im Faye and im a gay, yes I know great rhyming.

still let me continue.

This is about me and my coming out, getting married, trying for a baby, work. everything really.

Im only 27 (gosh that looks old when I type) but its been interesting so far. I want to change how the world views us gays and why it still feels like we are living in the dark ages.MY inner most thoughts will be expressed here day by day what I go through in everyday life.

You will probably have had the same experiences as me or you can just laugh at mine, feel free to share your own. If your coming out or still in the closet or not even sure what or who you are, this will hopfuly help.

You will have to cope with my spelling its not my strong point and I cant afford someone to check it for me, so I have to rely on the great spell check that is on the computer.

NExt on my big gay life:
Learn a little more about myself and my coming out story