3 years

Worked it all out have been trying for 3 years on and off! Why has it my worked in this time, I wonder maybe there really is Somthing wrong with me. Or is it my choice of donor , even Been looking at sights where people ask strangers for money for different things, dare I do the same. Prob wouldn't work but could try it

Age gaps

So ok 26 years that's a fair size age gap I can understand people finding it a little weird sum times, but not a good friend! What a bitch! Well she's gone that's for sure. Could do with out that thanks. 

Just except things, people r different things work differently! That's life!

Birthday

Today I am 28!  First birthday without any cards from a grandparent as I gave none left.  

Still no baby hense why I have no written I got the flu twice and had to miss a month trying as was too ill. Now it's that time again. Grandads funeral is tomorrow tho. Xxxx

Bad times

Never ever :(

Not pregnant

Again it's a no no, I was chilled, relaxed and had a little drinky which sum sites suggest and still zip Nowt not a thing was 3 days late then bang ! Very sad face right now, have lost count. Dam u nhs dam u dam u!  Gonna go on a new diet my mates r doing its not cheap but hey why not give it a go this ain't working,   

On the bright side sisters wedding is tomorrow so looking forward to that just hope there r no issues while I'm there. Lol.

Over and out

Negative vs positive

Not sure what's better stay positive and hope things will work and be very dissapointed when they don't. Or just think that things will never happen.  

Or can you really do either?

Still no good news for me yet!  And next door neighbour died poor man, that's two now.  

How did they know before me

Was friends funeral today, didn't make it coz had car issues but managed to get to the wake. 200_300 people went. 

While at the wake was talking to some one we didn't invite to our wedding as we haven't spoken in such a long time think she was really upset up it, I felt so bad she then whispered to me she stuck up for me back in the day. Meaning when mum and dad found out about me. Now I can't get that out my head! For one when did this happen and how did they all know before me.  Also why make me feel worse than I already do